how is life so precious yet suck so much?

Dear Michelle,

I know I have not been the greatest friend or brother to you the past several years, but I have always thought highly and cared for you much. It was always great seeing you at church, and the times we spent in high school will be forever cherished. You were always the quiet type, though blatantly loud with your forever smile. It is a Hellish experience not knowing so many things about you, and also knowing that i will never know. I do not know where you are, I do not know why, nor do I know what your last thoughts on life were. I wish I knew. I wish I could have done something for you. Forgive me for realizing this only after you left. I pray so much that you are with safe and happy... I will miss you forever Michelle.

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