okay. so i haven't really written about my own Christian issues lately, but that is not to say that I haven't been thinking about them. stop laughing. okay, fine you got me (especially aileen and pj). in any case, something that i wonder about is CityChurch's weekly communion. i guess i'm used to doing communion like 4 times a year, and it would be a really big deal at KCPC. we would devote entire lessons just about communion and why it is so important, what it means, etc. at CityChurch, it is done weekly because they believe it is important that it should be done everyweek to remind us of our commitment to God and what Christ has done for us. so what's the problem? the problem is, i take communion really seriously and sometimes i feel that my heart isn't into it so i refrain from partaking some weeks. in college, i would spend the the nights before the communion preparing myself for it, praying that i would be ready. paul wrote in 1 Cor. 11:

27Therefore, whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty of sinning against the body and blood of the Lord. 28A man ought to examine himself before he eats of the bread and drinks of the cup. 29For anyone who eats and drinks without recognizing the body of the Lord eats and drinks judgment on himself.

so again, what's the problem? that's good that i don't partake when i have not prepared, right? i guess my issue is that i don't want to fall into the trap that it's just a weekly ritual that loses it's meaning rather than a very important one that should be taken with the utmost severity. so yeah, i guess that's my main problem. people at my church who are doing it just cuz.