april 19th. i am now 5 months away from becoming 23.

so the dreams have been continuing to mess up my head and mornings, and what's even worse, i have been only waking up the past two weeks at either 8:27, 8:37, or 8:47. the past 10 working days. only those times.

i actually remembered last night's dream so i'll tell you what it was:

i forgot my garage door opener to my house, so i had to go through the front door. what i also didn't have were my keys. what's worse was there was a cow and her calf sleeping right in front of the door so i couldn't press the doorbell nor shout to my roommates to let me in. if i woke the calf and cow, they would get mad at me and probably trample me. so i tried to tiptoe over and reach over the cow, and they woke up. they both gave me this look where they were pretty scared. then i turn my head and i see a bull also waking up from his nap, and thinks a person is trying to attack his family. he gets pissed and is getting ready to chase me. i run and climb this spiral staircase to the side of my house (note, this house looks nothing like any house i have ever seen). the spiral staircase is metal with a door that is padlocked, so i couldn't climb all the way up into the house. the bull is just waiting for me to come down, sees that i won't, then goes back to his original place and falls back asleep. i examine the padlocked door and see that if i wanted to, i can crawl around it and enter the house. it is just a door in the middle of a spiral staircase, no walls, just a metal bar door with a padlock.
i think to myself, "should i climb and just go in? no. it's too easy. i'm gonna go in through the front."
why i decided this, i have no idea.
i try to tiptoe past the cow and calf again, but they awaken, again, and the bull chases me up the stairs, again.
i remember thinking to myself, "man, this is too easy if i climb around the door."

and that's the last thing i remember. i'm just sitting on the spiral staircase stuck in a position where i can easily get out of, but choose not to... because it's just too easy.
the story of my life.